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Alanis Morissette

I Was Hoping

As we were talking outside

It was cold

We were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter

My wife is in the next room

We've been having troubles you know

Please don't tell her or anyone

But I need to talk to somebody

You said 'Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was

Five minutes before I died

I'd be filled with such regret

Before I took my last breath '

And I said 'You're willing to tell me this now

And you're not going to die

Anytime soon '

And I said I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything

And you said yes

But you've been wearing leather

And laughed and said

We're at the top of the food chain

And yes you're still a fine woman

And I cringed

I was hoping

I was hoping we could heal each other

I was hoping

I was hoping we could be raw together

We left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's) said

'Good bye sir

Thank you for your business sir

You're successful and established sir

And we like the frequency with which you dine here sir

And your money '

And when I walked by they said 'Thank you too dear '

I was all pigtails and cords

And there was a day when I would've said something like

'Hey dude I could buy and sell this place so kiss it '

I too once thought

I was owed something

I was hoping

I was hoping we could challenge each other

I was hoping

I was hoping we could crack each other up

I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow

I too thought life was cruel

It's a cycle really

You think I'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you

I think you're insensitive and I don't feel heard

And I said 'Do you believe we are

Fundamentally judgmental

Fundamentally evil '

And you said Yes

And I said do you believe in revenge

In right or wrong

Good or bad

And you said 'Well what about the man that

I saw handcuffed in the emergency room

Bleeding after beating his kid

And she threw a shoe at his head

I think what he did was wrong

And I wouldn't have had a hard time feeling compassion for him '

I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged

I was hoping

I was hoping we could dance together

I was hoping

I was hoping we could be creamy together