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Depression - Dax

Lyrics by：Daniel Nwosu Jr.

Composed by：Daniel Nwosu Jr.

I can't find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days

Sometimes I sit and I reminisce 'bout the good times

Wish I could get those back

I keep on runnin' these races that go in my mind

And they go on these tracks

I'm not ready to erase all my memories

Hmm I fight depression

And I let it get the best of me

Now there's nowhere to run nowhere to go

Look around there's liquor bottles all on the floor

Fillin' up the space inside my heart and my home

Drownin' out these thoughts until they leave me alone

I can't find myself

I get lost inside my brain

Think I might need help

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days

These thoughts are drainin' all my energy

I try to tell 'em to God they said I'm goin' insane

And then they recommended therapy

And I go and talk to a man

Who's gettin' paid to explain

He started sayin' that

The chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain

Ain't connectin' to accomplishments associated with movin' on

All in life and passive things in my heart cannot contain

So that happiness won't sustain

And he read me my options

He said here goes a pill only take two eat a meal

And they don't know how I feel

I can't find myself

I get lost inside my brain

Think I might need help

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days

Should I drown all these thoughts

Or should I leave 'em to float

I've got all of my flaws livin' inside of this boat

I've been anchored in pain

The weight is makin' me choke

It's gettin' harder to breathe

It's pullin' right at my throat

I've been hopin' for change

But don't know how to restart

They say you ain't a man

When you're exposin' your heart

Then they say you insane

Until it tears you apart

And then it cuts you so deep

And they can tell by the scars

We can only see change

When we accept who we are

Try to run from the shame

And you will never get far

Don't you bottle the pain

And live your life in the dark

You're meant to break

From those chains and shine as bright as a star

Don't you ever tell yourself that your depression

Is the reason you won't make it

Or that happiness is not in your cards

With our God you can beat all the odds

Keep your faith and you'll never be lost and say

I can't find myself

I get lost inside my brain

Think I might need help

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days