Before - NIKI

作词：Nicole Zefanya

作曲：Nicole Zefanya

You hid me in your dorm room

It was Halloweekend I just flew

across the globe 22 hours just to see you

Just to barely fit on your twin-sized bed

and talk about your cool new friend

who I never met

who you dated as soon as I left

Appalachian autumn

It had been a year since I saw you since we

Ended it had a year to grow into the girl you always wanted

now we re holding hands as not quite friends but not quite lovers

but we ll just pretend

You say it s complicated to make amends

Well is that the way that we re headed then

And you couldn t answer me

Though you could pull me in while I brushed my teeth

and let your hands both freely speak like I wasn t ever gonna leave

You were all I d ever known

And now I m supposed to love you

from a distance like it s nothing like its instant

and youuuu say let s just see where this goes

And I don t know how or why you seem just fine

coz I m having to grasp that you re somehow not mine anymore

It s so cruel how things are only almost like they were before

(ah ah ah) Like they were before

(ah ah ah) Like they were before

(ah ah ah) Like they were before

We walk downtown and it s charming

You re alarmingly disarming

Yeah we ve got 48 hours left

before I fly back to my death

while you stay just fine and feel alive

South of the Mason-Dixon line

where everyone closes shop at 9

where you could somehow finally find

what you were desperately looking for

Funny how you thought that was gonna be New York

with our chalkboard walls and slanted floors

Oh we could ve had that and so much more

Ask your new lover what it s like to be given

a real fighting chance before you bid her good riddance

Did anything ever really count

or was I just a two-year practice round

Youuuu were all I d ever known

And now I m feeling stupid you re forbidden

They say yeah we were something

too bad we were children

Ooooh I don t know where to go

and I don t know how or why you seem just fine

coz I m looking at you & God knows you re not mine anymore

It s so cruel how things will never be the way they were before

Like they were before

It s almost just like how it was before

But it s not anymore